Thought I would share a modified version of a post I made in an online group today. It seems a bit self-congratulatory, but I don't mean it as that. I mean it as insight as to how my life has evolved over these past few months. I would never want cancer to define me. But I do have to acknowledge that this experience is seriously evolving me...
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In August, I thought Christmas was SO far away. Now chemo is done, I am still here, and I LEARNED that I am stronger than cancer! In three weeks, I'll have a surgery that I couldn't even start to think about in August. Now it is nearly here and I KNOW that I am stronger than cancer. In a few more weeks, I'll start 7 weeks of daily radiation treatments and I won't bolt from the room because I LEARNED THAT I KNOW THAT I AM stronger than cancer. My cancer will NOT survive 2014, but I WILL!!
This has been the hardest challenge of my life. To stay composed and positive has taken all of my energy and effort. But I have succeeded. They say that you never know how you will react when life throws you a curve ball. Now I know. I've got my eye on it and I'm going to hit that damn ball over the fence! I'm not settling for a single, a double, or even a triple. Home run, baby!! Frankly, it has to be a home run because I can't run fast enough right now to get around the bases with anything else. ;-)
This is scary stuff. I'm terrified sometimes. But I am HERE and for every day that Heavenly Father gives me, I will rejoice in another day to tell my kids I love them. This isn't about what we have lost... the hair, the breasts, the spontaneity... this is about every day being a day to rejoice that WE ARE STRONGER THAN CANCER because WE ARE HERE!!
Not sure what has come over me today... but it feels really good!! ;-)
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